Its hard to put feelings to words for me today. I am sitting here wondering what I should write. Steve says to write as though it is only I who read this. I wish that I felt more confident in what I say and think at times. Today is one of those days that I doubt myself..what I say, what I am thinking. I worry allot about what is happening around me. Some things I can not change. I think that those are the things that bother me the most. So here’s the plan: take a deep breath and deal with everything moment to moment.
I am only working half days this week, so I am going to have an opportunity to work on some things here at the hose. My office is on the top of my list. It has to function as a guest room as well so I can not let it appear as it does now. Since I am not going in till 2ish, I don’t have to pack my lunches, which is a plus. I have been doing “bento boxes” for the last few weeks, in addition to the “No S diet”. Pretty interesting combination.
We got the Wii Fit while we were on vacation last week. I didn’t bust it out until yesterday morning. Man is it a workout. Well for me it is since I had to work out routine to speak of. It’s fun and I am actually feeling accomplished. Now if I can just get past my feeling self conscious when Mom or Steve is in the room watching me. Kind of bugs me to have someone watching me work out. I don’t know why, but it does.
It would be great if I could borrow all of the strong characteristics of my friends when I need to draw strength from my lack of it. But here is to standing on your own two feet!